Just Say No!

Yeah, I went there. Day 3 of the blog challenge and I’m to share with you my view about drugs and alcohol. I can’t imagine why you’d be interested in it, but I’ll give it a go.

This is really a tough one. Personally, I refuse to be ruled by anything. The thought of relinquishing control of myself to a substance is abhorrent to me. Now, don’t get me wrong, I’m not a prude. I do occasionally drink alcohol and I have been inebriated (drunk just sounds so damn unsavory) but I don’t make a habit of it and I’ve never blacked out of forgotten my actions. All in all, I don’t really care for the feeling and I really don’t care for the after effects. I always end up feeling disappointed with myself. As someone who grew up with some heavy drinkers and an addict or two I have no desire to stagger down that road.

I understand that most people who use drugs for non-medicinal purposes are in some kind of pain and/or they may be predisposed to use and addiction. Life is hard and many of us are just ill-equipped to deal with it in any way that doesn’t involve some kind of mental/physical/emotional anesthetic. I can see that, but I can’t see taking that first step down the rabbit-hole to substance abuse and addiction. I just can’t. I’d rather slog through my shit; both metaphorically and in actuality, rather than take on an addiction. I won’t be ruled by anything other than my will. I just won’t.

Now, having expressed that, if you choose to do it, I won’t judge you for it. But it is very hard for me to be compassionate and sympathetic to someone who is a practicing addict. I just can’t get past the thought and feeling that it is a sign of weakness. And to be clear, I’m only referring to drugs used for illicit recreational purposes and not medicine prescribed to treat mental/physical disorders and/or diseases. And between you and me, this is one of the hardest admissions I’ve ever made.